I Have A Secret

Everyone has secrets. Everyone!

It just depends whether they decide to share it with anyone.

And just imagine, if they shared that secret with someone...and then that someone shared it with another person and so on...

It wouldn't remain a secret anymore...

And so, I will be one of those annoying people who says, "I have a secret BUT I can't tell you!"

Don't get me wrong...I am a big blabbermouth and am dying to tell someone my secret...but it's just not the right time, not yet...too early...argh...!!! It's driving me up the wall though cos I need advice...

Can you guess what it is??

GUESS GUESS! Makes it more fun!!!

Get Over It

During my travels of over 10 weeks, I've met a few interesting people and hung out with old friends and new friends.

One new person - L - I really connected with. Why? Cos we talked about nitty gritty stuff that people generally avoid.

L : So what's the most expensive gift you have received from a guy?
Me : Engagement ring
(and it was ME who changed the subject...till L brought it up hours later...)

L : So you were engaged? What happened?
Me : blah, blah, blah (it's now just a 2 minute spiel cos I can't remember much)
L : So are you over him? (See! I LIKE this straight-to-the-point bluntness!! why beat around the bush?? LOVE IT!)
Me : YES!!!!!!


I just love bluntness. What's the point of small mish-mash talk? Get to the deep stuff that really matters!!

Anyway, you know what the most annoying thing is though??

Although I am totally over it, some of my friends aren't!

I have been told by two brides AFTER THEIR WEDDING, that I could have been a bridesmaid but they didn't know if I could cope!! Like seriously, WTF is that about?? I LOVE WEDDINGS! I am ALWAYS happy to see people getting married and being in love. What did they think I was gonna do? Break down and cry and shoot the groom just cos I have a broken engagement?? PUH-LEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hello???

What pisses me off even more is....the fact they tell me AFTER the wedding! What is the point? Does it make me wanna thank them for saving me from wedding meltdown? HARDLY! Just gets me angry cos it means that they don't really know me at all! They couldn't have discussed it with me prior to the wedding??? Don't tell me after then!!!

GOSH, when will this broken engagement crap stop haunting me???

I also missed out on going to the ex's sister's wedding recently! I was invited and then I wasn't. I was raging! WTF? We're grown-up people here!!! Can't we be civilised to each other? That family are just weird!!


But it made ME look bad! EVERYONE was going and EVERYONE was invited.

People : Are you going to the wedding?
Me : No
People look at me like I'm the bitter ex-jilted-fiancee...aww, poor girl, can't cope with going to the wedding...blah blah blah...

(I could have explained why..sometimes I really wanted to...but then, I didn't cos I didn't wanna cause a scene or start some malicious rumours just before her wedding...see, I am CONSIDERATE that way!!)

Anyway, yeah, people get over it! Invite me to your weddings. Let me be the bridesmaid.

Let me catch the bouquet!

I MISS...

I Miss...

1. My family i.e. the ‘rents and the 6 siblings (yes, in case you don’t know, I am the eldest of 7)

o My mum and her words of wisdom – I used to think she was a nag, but I now realise, she DOES make sense after all!

o My dad – Happy Father’s Day!

o Sister 2 – After studying away from home for 7 years in the city of Dundee (aka Scumdee), she returns home just as I leave UK. She’s fab cos she drives me around!! Haha!

o Sister 3 – She’s in London so don’t really miss her that much...but maybe I miss the catfights we have! (I say catfight cos I think she is a COPYCAT of me!)

o Sister 4 – She had her lower wisdom tooth sawed out! And I missed seeing her in pain!!!

o Bro 5 – He recently got his Higher Grades – 4 A’s and 1 B! Well done! (But I remain the brainbox of the family...lol!)

o Bro 6 – Spoke to him on th phone the other day and he has this teenage angst phase thing going...quite funny indeed!

o Bro 7 – The youngest brother started High School a couple of days ago – I mean, how cute is that??

2. My friends (the true ones – you all know who you are!)

- I miss hanging out, texting, sharing stories, going out for dinner, staying in for dinner, chit chatting about nothing in particular, partying, going shopping, confiding, advising, listening, playing board games, having a laugh....etc...

3. Having “What shall I wear today?” moments

- This sounds SO shallow but I miss my 3 jam-packed wardrobes!

- I have to wear the same few clothes which don’t even last me for a week!

- I have to handwash them (yes, I miss the washing machine!) and dry them by hanging them up all over the room

- I have to wear the same few clothes in my photos...NOOOooooo!!

- The words “I have nothing to wear!” are now officially true! HAHA!

4. Home-cooked food

- Eating out practically every day is no fun after a while

- Some food taste good but some taste awful

- It is also costly - Felt robbed when I went to a Japanese restaurant yesterday and got served my pork curry with NON-Japanese rice!!! Why???

- Think of the calories and MSG and lack of nutrients...

5. Internet access

- Wifi was non-existent in some places in Western Australia!

- When I do find internet access, it usually costs a bomb

- I mean, Hello? I need to check my facebook!!!! AND blog!! Lol

6. My car

- My feet were NOT made for walking!

- Also, public transport is for peasants!! HAHA!

7. My bed

- Some of the beds I have slept in with have been bloody awful, I tell ya!

- In a 2 star hotel in Penang, I found, not one, but TWO toe-nail clippings under the bedcovers!! SICK! I checked out the next day and upgraded to a 4 star hotel.

- One night, after a long ass drive in the freakin’ dark in western Australia, dodging kangaroos and cows were a nightmare....but then, it was so late and so dark that accommodation was nowhere to be found and as a result, I shivered in fear in the car which was was parked in some dodgy place but hey, survived!

- Spent 13 days in a 4 star hotel in Sydney (yes, I know how to spoil myself), but the bed was lumpy bumpy – I’m like the Princess in the fairytale The Princess & The Pea (go read it). I also spilt pasta on the covers – the hotel maid NEVER even changed the bedcovers for the 13 days I stayed there!!!

8. My (ex)job

- Okay, that’s a semi-truth...

- I actually miss the monthly income more...haha...

- I also miss the UK working style with which I am comfortable with

- Had an interview in south-west Melbourne yesterday – erm, hello? A CAT wanders in and out of the surgery?? WEIRD!

9. My church

- Have been to 2 churches in Sydney

- One wasn’t exactly very welcoming – Now I know how it feels to be a newcomer!

- The other one was very welcoming, but the majority are international students AND I AM STILL A FREAKIN OLDIE!! There was this guy who I thought looked old...turns out I AM older than him!!!! Where are all the OLDIES churching??

10. UK TV

- Oh, speaking of TV, in Melbourne...where Neighbours is filmed!!! Contemplating a visit to Ramsay Street!

- Yeah, the TV here is just not the same

- UK have X Factor and Aussies have Australian Idol...and it’s crap! (Cheryl Cole beats Delta Goodrem hands down!)

I MISS Y'ALL!!!!

Packing

Trying to pack your whole life into one suitcase is IMPOSSIBLE!

Please can I pack all my favourite people in the world into the suitcase too??

I feel so blessed and so loved...I should leave more often...

I predict a big crying fest in 24 hours...

Quick itinerary :

London - HK - Bangkok - Chiangmai - Bangkok - Penang - KL - Perth - Sydney - ???

dilemma 1: where should I go to celebrate my birthday this year? the choices are amazing...

dilemma 2 : erm...haven't packed...

dilemma 3 : and erm...haven't booked any accommodation for perth and sydney yet...HELP!!!